i'm alive.. i havent forgotten..
i will catch up.
i will tell you all about busch gardens.
after we get back from memphis. maybe next wednesday.
as for now, I'm off to attend to crockpot lasagna.
i'll let you know how it turns out.. it smells awesome!

Kroger..

Kroger has started something new. Evidently in my contract that I signed 4 years ago it stated that part-time employees have to work 18 hours. Never has this really been a problem for me; but for the people who don't have a good availability schedule or people that really aren't good at their job and for people who call out. As far as I can remember, I've always gotten plenty of hours. Of course, I'm not strapped for cash and thats my fun job. But now, it's turning into my not so fun job. For the past 3 weeks I have been working over 20 hours there, and its honestly been closer to 25. There are a whole lot of changes coming and it's getting frustrating because every change that they do, allows me one more reason to complain, and think about giving my two weeks.

I have 10 more weeks till school ends, and then I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'd like to say I can hold out and keep up working 55/60 hour weeks, but I'm really starting to loose my patience.

So thats my rant for today, I'm off to enjoy my breakfast then head up to Smyrna. I took a me-day today and I'm loving it.. if only the puppy below me would stop barking and its owner take it outside to pee! Its getting a little sad :(

Oh one more thing! 1.5 more weeks till spring break, and 2 more weeks till Kenneth and I head to Florida! :)

Thoughts?

I'm mainly writing this because it's been on my mind a lot here recently. I take the Motlow nursing entrance exam on Wednesday. If I don't get into Motlow I'm not doing nursing this fall. This delays Kenneth going back to school, for whatever he wants to go back and get. And our final outcome of being done with school by the time we are 29. Not to mention having kids.

But anyway. I've been tossing around the idea of being a teacher. Kenneth's been talking to me about it, and then another lady at work as also mentioned it to me more than one occasion. I love the people I work with. They are all so encouraging and uplifting, I'm really thankful I was given this opportunity to come onto their team.

Now I could see myself being a teacher, I after all wanted to get my nursing degree and then work on getting my masters to become a nurse educator and teach heart healthy classes, smoking cessation programs, and labor and delivery classes after all. But now, with them telling me, I'm starting to wonder if I should just dump the idea of being a nurse.. (maybe thats why I was kicked out in the first place.) and become a resource inclusion teacher. This type of teacher works with kids that are below grade level on certain subjects. I would have my own classroom. I know I don't want to do the CDC aspect of it because I don't think I could handle day in and day out yelling and screaming. But on the other hand, I would be so picky with the area I work in and the grade level, it would be hard for me to find a job. I love the kids I have now, so I would want to do 3 through 5 grade.

I had to know by today if I wanted to go to a special teaching seminar in North Carolina over summer break that is geared towards helping kids with special needs. I decided not to because so many things are up in the air. And I don't want to have to pay them the 1,000 dollars that I would owe them if I do by some miracle get into Motlow.

So I'm sorry if this sounds uber confusing, I just had to type this all out. I guess it all boils down to the fact that I'm confused again. What else is new when it comes to my life :-/